Bittersweet
Dear Ava,
Tonight, Daddy and I will drop you off at the Hoffmans’ and head to the hospital for Doozy’s induction. That knowledge has made nearly every thing the last day and a half seem like “the last time.” This season – the family of three season – has been so short in what I know will be such a long and happy life for us as a family of four. The change we’re about to undergo together is one that tugs at my heartstrings and leaves everything feeling just a little bittersweet.
Two years, nine months, and four days ago, you made your daddy and I parents. We had no idea how strange and wonderful this whole experience would be. You’ve taught us so many things and given us so much more that we could have ever dreamed. You opened our hearts and minds wide open to the childhood wonders of the world and all the possibilities that lay out there for you and for us. I can’t even begin to express adequately the pride I feel when I watch you grow into the person you are becoming. Your strong sense of self, your sense of humor, your empathy, your kindness, your flexibility & even your stubbornness all combine to make you a truly unique and wonderful person. I’m so excited to see who you will become over the next several years and how you will learn to be a big sister.
Ava, one of the reasons I’m so excited to bring Doozy into our family is because this baby is getting you for a sibling. It may sound like a lot of responsibility, now, to know that you will always be one of the people Doozy looks up to most in life, but I know that you will embrace that role with the fervor and enthusiasm with which you approach everything you do. I’m so excited about this opportunity for both of you and am so grateful to know that I can trust you both with each other.
Mostly, though, I wanted to write to you today to tell you that I love you…more than I could ever say. I am terribly proud of you…my heart nearly bursts with pride when I think of all you already are. Neither of those things will ever change. No matter how many times over the next few months you hear “In just a minute” or “You’re the big kid,” know that what I always want most is for you to be happy and for you to know that Daddy and I love you. I will treasure these almost-three years with just you and our little family of three forever and ever. Thank you for making them so sweet and so much fun.
Loveyoustuff,
Mommy
WOW. Sally, thank you so much for sharing this. I think those of us who know Ava (virtually, through your blog, or in “real life”) know how very special she is, indeed. But this letter just goes to show that she has a pretty special mommy, too, and you and Matt are 100% responsible for that amazing little girl being who she is! You’re such terrific parents, I’m so happy for you all, and I can’t wait to begin reading/hearing all about Doozy, too.
Muchl love,
Lydia
What an awesome letter to a special first born. Doozy will be so lucky. Waiting to hear the happy news. Lots of Love, Uncle Harold and Aunt Teresa
This is such a special message to send to your special little girl on a day when your family is on the brink of a big change. The change to four people loving each other is an exciting change in your life. We are thinking of you with much care and are anxious to meet Doozy for whom Ava will be a wonderful big sister!
I am now crying at my desk! <3